An apology

 

This is my apology…

I’m apologising to someone whom I love very much. I’m not going to name names so I don’t embarrass her any more than I already have. But this is the way I feel. Hopefully she will understand.

I never, ever meant to hurt feelings, although I think this is probably exactly what happened. I am truly sorry that it did. But recently, I was feeling exuberant, tired, or maybe I had too much coffee, and I felt like making a joke. And a week later, it seems to me, it didn’t end up being funny at all. I meant it as humour, but it was one of those jokes that you should never put in writing and never put on the internet. It wasn’t my intention to be mean, or hurtful, but because of the mood I was in when I wrote it, it just came off as downright mean and rude. I sure do wish I could take it back. I wish I could go back, to before it happened, and write something serious and honest like… This person is one of the most important people I have in my life. She’s always been one of my closest friends, she’s been kind and helpful to me, and she’s stuck beside me when I was down and out. I am so blessed to have her.

Why didn’t I write something like thatus? I don’t know. Maybe I was just angry, upset or worried. Even the best of friends once in a while get caught up with other things and can be insensitive to each other. It’s just so foolish and stupid. I really regret it.

All I can say, is that I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it the way it came across, and I want to move on.

If she ever decides to read this, she might like to know that I can’t imagine enjoying the summer without her. At the end of the month, I want to get together for one of our traditional trips out to shop and have a great meal. Hopefully, she will forgive me in time for us to have an adventure out, like we have always done, and give us the chance to put both our troubles behind us and have a fun time.

I never meant to hurt you or make you angry. It was just a stupid, stupid comment. Please, forgive me so we can be best of friends again and enjoy the summer.



Wow! I feel better for doing that. Now? I’ve still got some massive challenges to figure out. I got some work with my dear friend Robert yesterday, helping him with a computer project, and helped my friend Junior out with his PC problems, too. Still trying to organise resources and figure out solutions, but staying positive, bringing joy into my life at every opportunity and enjoying what I have is keeping the wind in these old, tattered sails and giving me the momentum I need to press ahead. This is the “Home Stretch”, and I’m going for broke. I will have an air conditioner in my apartment in a couple of days to beat the summer heat and I’m going to investigate furniture options seriously. Getting back to work is giving me hope that I’ll be fully self-sufficient in a month, and I’m looking forward to not worrying about bills and money.

 

All Good Things… Oh, and send me a Facebook message and we’ll make plan