In with the good, out with the bad

 

Whew! What a day! I'm thinking HOT bath.

Had to go to the pharmacy and pick up my order. I fell asleep at like 4pm yesterday and missed the delivery guy.

Went to East General for tests. My lung function test apparently went really well. Still needs looking at by a respirologist, but so far so good.

Ordered Rogers hi speed internet. Should be in by Thursday afternoon, which means I'll be back to work Thursday night. THAT is the goal: to work, around the clock, to save money to get things for the apartment. I can really do this.

Walking in downtown Toronto is NOT like walking around in Scarborough. Downtown, one is inundated with sights, sounds and happenings. For the first time, stepping out my front door felt like an adventure and not an isolating chore. I walked south, then west, then north, and when I was done I had covered quite a few city blocks. Awesome.

Life is going to be all hardship and struggle for the next couple of weeks, but I'm well enough to meet these challenges. I have to remind myself to pursue that which is positive, uplifting and joyous, and firmly reject negativity and useless conflict. I’ve allowed far too much negativity to creep in, when things have been going so well, and I’ve worked much, much too hard to let myself get dragged down into the muck. I have risen above. Everything is laid out before me and I'm going for broke. I will continue to generate random joy for myself and encourage it in others. Yes, this too shall pass, and before I know it I’ll be living the life that I want to live, a life where I’ve got TONS of opportunity to seek out and create joy. Random, senseless joy. I deserve nothing less.